life

If you asked me 10 years ago where i saw myself today i would have said no clue. But i'm standing in the kitchen today looking out the window and I thought to myself, how did i get here? What is my life going to be like? I looked around room, the baby swing in front of the fire place, the biggest most comfortable couches in the world. Here i am at 30 married to the love of my life, standing in a 2,000 sq ft home with more then amble furniture on a beautiful day. Yea i wouldn't have said that if you asked me where i'd be today. Some days I stress about money, some days i'm tired, but wow what a life i lead. Surrounded by great people, waking up to someone who loves me more then life itself. Life is good, very good.

One Month left

Yesterday was March 23, one month exactly until my due date. Very scary. Dave said to me this morning, "we're gona have a baby" i was like yea really soon. it's so crazy. I haven't posted a lot lately b/c not much has gone on. Dave had a fishing tournament last weekend and won a brand new fishing kayak! It's worth like $2500. He was so pumped, as was I! I'm so excited for him. Now we have two kayaks so he can take people out with him.

I got to go out over the weekend for Liv's birthday. She turned 25 on Sunday and we all went out to dinner. I also got to go out to dinner last night. We went to wild Wings with Mike and Melissa. I think that did me in though b/c my ligaments hurt today. So I'm taking it easy until the doc at 3:30. Mom is coming to get me around 2:00 and we were going to stop at Micheal's to get ribbon for the little mirrors that are going in baby's room.

Baby's room is looking really good, just need to move the little book shelf in there and hang some pictures. My aunt just ordered my mattress pad! Very exciting. That is the last think i need for in there. Very exciting.

Sunshine!

It's beautiful outside right now. I'm sitting on the couch with all the blinds open. People keep asking me if I'm bored? I'm not. I think it might take a good week to get there, if then. I have my computer...that's entertainment for a while. I have made myself a list of projects I can do sitting right here. I feel good today. The tightness and her pushing is coming in and out and is usually worse in the afternoons. So the mornings are good. I slept in until 10:30 today. The longer i stay in bed the better. It's the most comfortable at this point. Mom came yesterday and brought Dave and I dinner. She even did the dishes while she was here. I was thinking about mom's yesterday. It's funny, we all have one, but the relationships we have with them are so different. You really start to reflect on this stuff when you're about to be a mom. My mom is amazing. She NEVER gave up on us. She was always there, always supportive, always just did what needed to be done. Here I am at 30 and she's still taking care of me. I am very lucky to have her as a role model. She's going to be an amazing grandmother too. She just takes care of things, of us. She was pretty worried about me and baby J last week. so much so i think she got sick b/c of it. She is coming over today to sit with me while the cleaners come. She and dad treated us to a house cleaning before the baby comes! This is very exciting b/c now dave and I don't have to worry about that piece. Dave put up the blinds in baby's room last night and I'm just waiting on the window valance from Target in the mail. Once that comes and we move the dresser over the room will be done. Oh and we have to hang some stuff on the walls. But that's not a rush. The major stuff is done! I'll put photos up when the valance comes.

Sunday Blog

I think this might be the first time I blogged on a Sunday...why is that you ask...oh yea that's right b/c i'm ban to the couch. haha. I feel good today, my energy is back. It's hard to not be able to just go do laundry or run to babies r us, but hey could be a lot worse then sitting here on my laptop. Friday went well with all that went down. Dave's teeth went great, they ran into no problems. Liv took him and picked him up, he was pretty out of it when he got home but felt fine Saturday morning (to our surprise). Friday night he did ice on for 20 off for 20 and i think it really helped. He didn't have to take his pain meds after Friday. Mom/Dad/Olivia were all here Friday to help us and they were here yesterday too. Liv/mom did our laundry which was pretty sweet.

Today Dave went to help Mike/Melissa with some shelves. Mom/Dad are coming around 3:00 to grab some stuff to take up to babies r us for me. My friend Sara is bringing us dinner tonight! So sweet. I think she's coming around 3 as well.

Prisha came over yesterday and brought the cutest outfit ever! (and she brought me a coloring book and a candle!) Later that night Monica/Mark/Reid came by. He is too cute, baby Reid. I love visitors!

pressure

There is so much pressure going on in my stomach right now it's crazy. I think it's just her and not contractions. But everything in there is so sore it's hard to tell. I talked to my midwife today and she said to try and take a bath to try and get everything to settle down. So I did, i think it helped. I ate breakfast and lunch and I'm waiting on my 2 hour mark so i can test my sugar and then grab a snack. I'm hungry and that's good. Dave is making us fish tonight so i'm excited about that.

My mom is taking me to the doc in the morning and dad is taking dave to get his wisdom teeth out around lunch. They are both going to stay with us for a bit tomorrow to see if we need anything. I think Liv is coming over too, I'm sure it will end up being a movie night with not a whole lot of anything else.

Mom is going to babies r us this weekend to return some stuff for me and pick up a few last minute items. As far as baby goes, we have almost everything we need and will have everything after mom hits babies r us.

Hospital

So the misery makes a lot more sense now.I was havering contractions. About 12:30 Monday I decided to call the doc to see if there was something I could take for the pain I was having. I also mentioned I was nausea. They told me to come in and hooked me up to the same machine as last time. Two monitors, one for baby’s heart beat one for contractions. They put me in a little room with a recliner. Midwife Jean came in and her eyes go wide when she saw the readings from the machine. She said holy shit what’ going on with you. She checked my cervix (it was closed) and admitted me to the hospital. Dave was on his way to the doctor’s office when she pulled me into the exam room to check my cervix. I had two big contractions on the way to the doc and was in tears a this point. (there is no question about an epidural now) They admitted me to east cooper, they made me get in a wheel chair...booo.. and took me over this walk way to the back entrance of the maternity ward. They got me set up and gave me procardia pills to stop the contractions, which is the main goal...keep the baby in. Every hour for 3 hours we did the pill. About 6:30 Midwife jean came over and said they were not working so we had to start magnesium sulfate.

They had given me an IV and pain meds at this point, so they started the mag and gave me fair warning it wasn’t going to be pretty...little did they know. It was about 3 seconds after they put the mag into my IV and I looked at the nurse and said I don’t feel good, I can taste it. She said oh there’s no way you could react that fast. I looked at dave and said, I’m gona throw up. He grabbed a bin and I threw up. The nurse said she has never seen someone react so quickly to it. Well now you have.

They gave me a catheter b/c I’m not allowed to get up. And a shot in my butt for the nausea. So I have tubes come out all over the place. They had two monitors on my belly like at the doctor's office, and at the time they started the mag, my contractions were a minute apart and lasting for 40 seconds. Not good. I was pretty out of it for the rest of the night.

Mom/dad/liv stopped by the house and got Dave and I some stuff. Mostly clothes and for Dave and a blanket and pillow for both of us, and a laptop. They stayed for a bit then took off. They gave me an ambien to help me sleep and apparently it worked b/c Dave said I was out cold. He said the nurses kept coming in and asking me questions and I didn't even respond. It’s hard to sleep in the beds, and of course you have nurses coming in every hour to take your temp and check your tubes, so it's really good i had the pill.

Tuesday (written Tuesday):

This morning I was been feeling better. Still seeing double and out of it though. The contractions this morning were 10 minutes apart and have been getting less and less all day. They are afraid if they take me off the mag they will return so they are going to do that tomorrow morning and see how I respond. Side note: I can hear baby’s heatbeat and she has the hiccups. I got to eat breakfast this morning and lunch is here waiting for me. The mag makes you retain fluids so I’m not allowed too much water but all these drugs make your mouth dry so it’s not the best combo. I have diet ginger ale now which is nice b/c it has some taste but I have to make it last.

Dave has been amazing. I’m very lucky. I think he did get some sleep last night, the couch in our room pulls out. The room is nice, very large. We did hear some crying babies last night and this morning, which is always nice to hear. We both look at each other and just smile.


Wednesday

Yesterday I was in and out of it most of the day. But last night they backed off the mag a little and I started to feel better. I didn’t get any meds to sleep and slept pretty good. Everything seems to be going well this morning. It’s about 8:00AM and the docs are coming soon to pull the mag all together. I have had very few contractions and I feel sooo much better then yesterday. The double vision is almost completely gone and I’m finally hungry. Dad brought me to pb&j’s last night and I had one when he got here and one this morning. I have eggs and cheese coming at some point for my breakfast.

Dave slept pretty good too last night so that’s really good. It’s hard to sleep here with all the nurses coming in and out but our nurse last night was really good and she tried to stay quite when she came in.

They still have me on an IV with fluid and antibiotics. Oh and last night they gave me the second steroid shot. Holy S*& did it hurt. I was dead asleep about 2 seconds before so it wasn’t the best way to get up. It burned something fierce. This morning Nancy from labs came to take blood and she got it on the first try (unlike the nurse the first day here that stabbed me like I took her purse). So it was nice to have a pro. Anna is my nurse again today and I like her. She stopped by a few times this morning already and she’ll be with me hopefully all day. Nurse Stone should be here soon to pull the mag.

Overall feeling much better then yesterday. Baby J’s heartbeat is great and contractions aren’t coming too much. Good report.

Afternoon update:
Nurse Stone and Dr. Wilson came and pulled me off the mag this morning around 9AM. It was wonderful. They took out all the IV's and the catheter! I was a free women. But getting up and walking for the first time in 2 days is pretty interesting. I almost ran into the wall. no balance. Dave and I watched "Dirty SExy Money" and played cards. I felt like myself today. Dr. Wilson came back around 1:00 and told me I could go home. I couldn't wait to take a shower, which is the first thing i did as soon as we got home. They took me in a wheel chair, which i had no problem with this time. I'm just so glad she's still inside me. Still cooking. Dr. Wilson said I have to make it to 35 weeks which is a week and 3 days. I can do it. 37 weeks is better so that's what i'm shooting for. I'm officially on bed rest. I can be standing/walking for 15 minutes max then i have to sit/lay back down. Dave is going to publix tonight to get tons of food. A lot of people said they are up for helping, i think the biggest thing i need is help getting dinner made. Dave doesn't usually get home till late and I get hungry around 6. I can't stand up long enough to chop veggies and grill chicken, even on the George Forman which is now my new best friend. So pathetic.

But i'm home now. Watching some TV and playing on the net. My back hurts i think due to the being in that hospital bed and the water retention. I am just drinking a lot of water and staying chill.

Miserable

Today I am miserable. You know that feeling when you eat too much, I mean WAY too much, to the point that it physical hurts. That times like 5 is how I feel right now. I have come close to tears twice this morning, and told my co-workers I want to shoot myself in the face. It's coming and going at this point, and I'm hoping it will pass shortly....but it's been like this for 3 hours. It's constraint but gets stronger at cretin times to the point i feel like I'm going to fall over.

Baby has had the hiccups a few times a day for 3 days now. Each day they get a little stronger. It was cool b/c Natalie got to feel them over the weekend. I was really glad she got to feel her while she was here.

The shower on Saturday was amazing! It was so cool to have everyone there. Two of my friends from work came, which was really nice. It's funny because there are about 6 different girls that I really enjoy but haven't spent that much time with. Every time i see them I get excited and love their company, but we need to see each other more offend. I am going to try and make more effort with each one of them to see them more. It's a little harder now b/c Dave and I cut out eating out completely. That was always a nice way to make plans, just meeting up with people to go out to dinner. But now that it's nice, we can grill out so maybe we can start having more people over.

This coming weekend Dave is getting his wisdom teeth out. So we'll be chilling low this weekend. It's also the DI garage sale, and my friend Heather's shower. I'll be hitting up DI's yard sale with 3 things in mind. A set of matching lamps for the master bedroom, a small table for next to the glider in the baby's room, and a small outdoor table for the front porch. So we'll see how i do. I also have my maternity shoot this weekend. Saturday with Kayla at the beach, and Sunday with Kit at the house. Hopefully we'll get some cool shots.

Hit to the ribs

I don't know how she does it but baby girl likes to hit/punch me in the side. If you stand up straight with your arms at your side, right where your arms touch your body, that's where she's aiming. To the point that I yelled in the car (by myself) when she hit me. My goodness is she strong. It's funny now though because I can find her and push back a little. Just enough so she feels it and she pushes back. It's really funny to watch/feel. It's hard for me though b/c I want to share it and i'm usually by myself when she dances up a storm. Every now and then Dave gets to feel her. But it's so much while I'm at work because I sit almost all day (except for my 15 daily trips to the bathroom).

I was going to write more but i'm late for the doc..

Special Delivery

Last night Dave and I had our first pregnancy class. We have a total of 6 this month. The special delivery series is 3 classes. There were about 12 couples there last night including us. One girl had her sister with her, one couple had different last names, everyone else seemed to be married. As far as I could tell anyway. All about our age, all on their first baby. The class was good. We talked about the signs of labor and when to call the doc. What's normal, what to look for, and how to breath through contractions. We even laid on the floor at the end. The girl laid down on her side and the partner sat behind them massaging different parts based on where tension will be during labor. It was kinda cool. Dave did great :) haha. I did feel bad b/c the teacher kept saying "husbands" or "daddies" and the one girl had her sister there. She should have just kept saying partners.

It hit me around 3:00 yesterday that b/c class started at 6 and went to 9 we were gona need to eat something before hand. So I called dave and told him we needed to eat before hand and we met at a wing place near the hospital at 5:15. (I left work a little early) Next week we're gona pack sandwiches and eat at the break.

Health: baby is moving and grooving today. I feel pretty good. But it's so different the morning v.s the afternoon. It gets much harder to get up and move around as the day goes on. My GD is under control. I have been doing really well with it and only went over that one time. The docs were very impressed with my food journal (not the content just the fact that I was doing it).

My shower is Saturday, very excited!

Dance Party Break??

Every morning little baby has dance party. She moves and wiggles around in there and pushes in every direction. But not this morning. She didn't move at all! So i thought ok i'll have some breakfast and see what she does....nothing. Ok now all I can think of is that horrible article I read about the cord getting wrapped around her neck. So I get to work and call the doc's office. Karen (my nurse) calls me back and after hearing what I had to say tells me to come over to see the midwife. I call Dave on the way and he meets me over there. They hook me up to this machine with two round monitors on my belly. One is for contractions, one is for heartbeat. Her heartbeat was great! Very strong, and they have me a diet coke and she moved around a little bit. THANK GOD! Man were we nervous. As soon as I got back to the office she was back to herself, moving and jamming out. After lunch she did her normal afternoon dance party and is now taking a nap, b/c she wore herself out. Jean (the midwife) was glad I came in and said that if there is every a 2 hour block where I don't feel anything to call. (given, that never happens, besides today)

So all is well in Womb land. My shower is coming up this Saturday and I'm very excited. Mom and I are headed to babies r us this afternoon b/c the stuff she ordered she's not a big fan of. It was a bed skirt. So we're gona see what else they have. We have our first class tomorrow night. I paid for it today, it was $55 for the whole series. I also paid for Infant CPR, but that's not for 2 weeks. That one was $25 a couple. Mom and Dad take it in June, that was the first opening they had when I looked online today.